I Tried...

Time nw : 5.24am

Jeez, i can't sleep.. i tried, but to no avail.. My already too-tired eyes just refused to give in to my needs nw... Simply refused to shut... Ahhhhh.. I hate this... There's soo much.. Too many stuff in my head nw.. I can't sleep, and that only makes me eager, though not meant; to think...

I cant really explain myself. I dun even knw wat i need nw ( tho i thnk its just decent sleep nw.. ) i dun even knw wat i want.. Theres sooo much dat i want but, its a blurred image... i can vaguely see anythng nw... everythng seems to be so far fr my grasp..

Hurm.. thnking bout ths.. im like, shieett... nw my crease line along my forehead wont go away.. hold on, lemme check in d mirror.. * Yeps, definitely staying.. + looong sigh *

Hurm, i cant help but thinkng some part of me is missing... trust me, i really hv no idea wat the other part is, just the fact, i never felt sooo detached frm life.. its like, every part of my self screamed confused nw.. Well, i am confused.. teehee~

hurm.. all i can do nw is sigh.. lots and lots of sighing.. * yea, i sound like old ppl nw.. * sometimes i wonder, why cant just be as easy as it shud be? just as easy as managing computer, or in my case, laptop// Just simply delete files or applictions dat i dun need.. Delete forever memories or thoughts dat i don't want forever, never to be remembered again.. Sigh~

Jeez, i dun even knw why im saying all this stuff.. hahaha~ but anyway, i guess, i'll give it another try ( sleeping.. ) But yea, i will be happy.. hehe.. cant make everyone around me sad eh, just because im going thru some sad-pathetic stage? Lol~~ Lets put on a fake smile and hope everybody goes along with it.. =]