Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Big Meany...

My daddy is a big meany, heartless, soul-sucking monster who knows no compassion!! ( Roaarr!! )

This morning I woke up at 6 cause I needed to send my sister to school but the thing is, I can't even walk straight for 10 seconds because I was having this fricking headache on, and a seriously runny nose..

Seriously not a good sign..

Told my sister to ask our Mum to send her to school instead.. and I crawled back to my bed to continue my snoozing..

Till it was somewhat 1hour later that I heard somebody banged on my door and I knew instantly that it was my dreaded Dad..

Struggled to get up and told him that I am sick, and was not able to go to the office..

And guess what was his reaction???

He got real angry and began lecturing me about not doing my job, and the progress reports' dateline is closing in.. Saying all this even after knowing I was figgin sick!!!

Ohhhh that brute!! He even asked me to go work in KFC if I continue acting this pampered!! I was like, WTF??? I can't even get sick without getting a scolding from him!! Fcuk!!

( wish i was cute as this little boi.. :( made me so jealous. )

So, in a nut shell, it was a very very bad morning.. Was soo down with headache, and I kept on sneezing in the office.. Loud loud sneezes.. Def' made me awkward.. :(

Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow... :)

Sunday, September 4, 2011


You made me feel so down...

I can't believe it, tell me i am dreaming that we are still we.
It was amazing said you were lucky that you found me.

It was on a rainy day that we met, you didn't have a place to go.
As we just met so lets go slow but no you just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry i can't take it, why you fake it, why did we kiss.

And i'm just down, you've left me with a note and without a sound.
I've figured i must stop being such a child. You'll never know how much i've been around.
How my heart just frowns on your down
I'll be your teddy bear, i'll be your cloud, i'll take round and round
And if you don't mind i could be your standing ground
Even if that means i'll drown.

As we just met so lets go slow but no you just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry i can't take it, why you fake it, why did we kiss.

And i'm just down, you've left me with a note and without a sound.
I've figured i must stop being such a child. You'll never know how much i've been around.
How my heart just frowns on your down
I'll be your teddy bear, i'll be your cloud, i'll take round and round
And if you don't mind i could be your standing ground
Even if that means i'll drown.

And baby that will be my one last vow

Wednesday, August 24, 2011


Yeah! I would like to start my post with that!


Why do I have to be soo unlucky??? I mean, its like I have been cursed or something.. God!

Why me?? Why me Lord??


Just now while fetching my sister, I suddenly fell very very particularly sleepy.. And I have no idea what caused this.. Like, seriously.. I am usually attentive while driving but I have no idea what happened today..

I can't really remember though, but I know I was slowing down.. And maybe I closed my eyes for just 1 tiny mili-centi-metre-miniscule second.. and BUMP!!


I hit the bumper of somebodys car!! A soft bump lah, but its still a bump!!

I was like, OMG OMG OMG!! How the hell this happened to me???

I am soo soo dead!!

Stupid guy trying to ruin my already bad day.. Screw his white ass!! :(


Eugh shit..

Luckily the owner of the car that I hit, didn't press charges against me.. Well, her Proton Iswara survived without a scratch while mine got this huge ugly dent in the front!

So embarrassing.. She even asked me to be more careful next time.. Hahaha..

Even shook her hand in the end, I guess its her way of saying she is not angry and that she forgave me.. Hehehe good lady.. :)

But the thing is,

I have no idea how to tell this to Dad..

He would skin me alive!!


Or I could just fix it with my salary, eh? :(

So stress!!!!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Long Long..

Today is gonna be a very very long day...

Full of hard long and thick.. mmm.. day.. of work and procrastination..

Though i wouldn't mind whats served on the other end too.. LOL!

I am soo sleepy and thirsty..

This torture.. Man.. I'd take whipping and smacking anytime anyday, but this torture..

The one I'm having now, is just way too much..

Its blowing my mind.. Aaaaaa BLOW ME!!! (no pun intended, this time. )

What are you guys doing out there?

Feeling the Monday Blues as well?



Friday, August 19, 2011

Poker Face~

Hi, whats up everybody? Is everyone fine? Lol~ Don't mind me, I am just talking to anybody else.

Hahah.. So lame.. I know right?

Hrm.. It came to my attention today, that somebody said that I didn't care.. Or well, I showed no interest of the current biggest issue in my life.. Well not really mine alone, but involves 3 other people in my life..

It hurts.. And it stings..

Because I do care.. I just didn't showed my emotions and air my opinion about it..

Why? Why didn't I, you might ask?

Because that will be disastrous.. I am a walking time bomb full of emotions.. When I do show it, people might get swept away by it.. And everything goes boom.. Die..

Seriously I have my own thoughts and opinions, but in this matter, I really think its really up to the higher ups.. Its their choice.. Its their life.. Me? I will make the best out of it; I will find my own way.. Simple eh?

She asked me, who will I follow if the worse of the worse happens.. And I said, I will find my own way somewhere faraway.. I'll start my own life..

And I really think this is the best.. May be hard, and I know I will suffer.. No more shoppings.. Ahhh The horror!?!?!??!

But yeah, it'll do me good to stand on my own ground.. T_T"


Sunday, July 10, 2011

A Letter to My Dog.

Dearest Pochi,

How are you? I hope you are doing fine there.. All happy and fed-well.. And I seriously hope you are free from fleas and ticks.. It is very unfortunate if you find a friend in them, being nasty things they are.. Pests.. Bad for your health.. I don't want you to get sick.. Never in a million years..

Have you been good friends to the dogs that my cousin Girly and Ngin Ngiang have there? Please don't treat other dogs as your toy okay.. I've seen the way you handled the Garfield Plush Toy I gave you.. You bite him like there's no tomorrow.. But the weird thing is, I know how deeply attached you are to the Garfield.. You got mad once when I tried to take it away from you back in
Cyberia, right? I'll get you another one soon, okay? Its a promise.. =]

You are such a silly dog.. But you know I love you very very much..

You know whats regrettable? The fact that I cannot hug and talk to you every night like I used too, and let me tell you, I missed those moments every single day.. I missed them soo soo much.. You were my friend, always listening to my problems and my rants and never get bored..

And all those private moments we shared together.. Haha.. And you were the only one who saw me naked the most!!

Damn you.. Never keep your eyes closed when I'm changing clothes or after I am done with my bath.. Pervert.. :(

Someday when I get my own house, I promise I will bring you and live with me okay? Then we can live under one roof together again, like last time..

It will be soo much fun, right?? I can hardly wait..

Make sure you take good care of your golden fur coat.. Grooming costs soo much, you know.. Not cheap at all.. hehe..

Till then, hang on tight okay?


Friday, July 1, 2011

Nothing But a Visitor.

I know I have always been a let down.. I admit it myself; I am... And sadly enough, it never occurred me to change into a better person, you know...

In my right mind, I am always Right.. I do whatever I want, practically because I know I could, and I would.. Nobody would object to what I want, and even if they did, I will always find a way to get what I want, no matter what the cost.. I know, I know.. I am living a completely ignorant life.. And took everything for granted..

I am currently back in my own home, in ol' Kota Kinabalu.. And yet, it is the strangest thing ever.. I just cannot get rid myself of this strange atmosphere.. Maybe this is just me, but I do feel unwanted here.. Like I do not belong here.. It is strange to be home, but not feel at home.. Guess this pretty much describe the title eh? I feel uneasy all the time, anxious beyond my wits; like something bad is going to happen any minute..

Plus the fact that there is no single speck of "proper" food in the house makes it any more worse.. By mean of proper food, I mean cereals, fruits, dairy stuff.. None of that!! How depressing.. All they seem to have are cupcakes, cakes, sugary biscuits.. Needless to say, they only contain sugar and carbs and I am having none of that..

But are they not food you serve to your guest?? You will not be serving your guests cereal and cheese and milk right?? What a weird choice of condiments right? Hahaha..

In the back of my mind, I wish I were back in KL.. Tucked safely in my room, alone.. I was secure, I was happy..

Too bad eh? :(

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Anime frenzy!

AAAHHHH why oh why is that when I am busy with my ever-keep-piling assignments do I find more interesting thing to do?

Right now I am caught up in a super anime frenzy!

Just spend times between assignments watching anime.. And more anime..

And I keep downloading new anime everyday.. My laptop is working very hard everyday just to satiate my hunger for anime.. Heheh~

And thanks to torrent for providing me with anime.. Really grateful..

( And thanks for being free.. Seriously, you have my undying gratitude.. )

Now I am downloading Pokemon Season 1.. ohhhh can't wait for it to be done!!

Weee!! Now I am off to watch Lucky Star.. While snacking on fries I just ordered, and received..

What a life.. =]

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Curiosity Kills the Cat...

But in MY case, it killed me!!

I tried smoking..
( I stole one from Shanna, I guess its hers? )

I smoked one.. Out of curiosity, you know..

And I swear to God, I am never gonna smoke again..


First, it made me cough.. Not just your normal run-of-the-mill cough, it was those awkward kind where you tried to act cool, but you ended up looking like an idiot..

Now picture me trying to hold my cough while holding a cig, blushing furiously..

Err, not a pretty sight.. :(

It hurt my ego, just a lil' bit..

Second, when I'm done with the cig, oh WOWW????

I got dizzy.. I was walking-swaying side to side..


Luckily there wasn't anybody.. If not, I would have die of humiliation..

Third, the smell.. The cig smell kills.. I mean, I don't have any objection to people smoking near me, but when it radiates from me, from my mouth, from my body.. Oh boy.. Thats a no-go!!

That's all.. End of my rant..

Thanks for listening, or reading..


Oh happy birthday Jenna!!! :D

Happy 30 years old!! Hahahahahahha!!!

( i'll tag you later in FB okay?? ^^ )


Friday, April 29, 2011

Huh, what happened???

There is surely something very weird and terrible happened today..

Cause I was calling for taxi non-stop since 11am till now.. but I got na-da!

I even fell asleep in the process and still yet, no taxi!!

What the fcuk is wrong with today????

Please don't give me "its fridays" shit! I ain't buying it! There's so many taxi around here..

Don't tell me they're all occupied!!

Aaahhh such a bummer! :(

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Empty Promises...

Like a routine, I would always promised myself to be more productive in the next semester, or current semester..

Sadly enough though, I guess the phrase "All talk and No action" suits me perfectly..

In fact, I managed to do all those things that I promised NOT TO DO.. Hahaha..

I slacked off..

I cut class..

I had fun..

I spent a lot.. ( Something that I never ever been able to get rid of, its a curse. )

and some other stuff, you know..

Yerr something needs to be done!

Brainwash me!! Torture me!! Anything!!

ANything so I can be a perfect student-ish type.. ^^

I wish things will be easier like that eh?

Oh I really miss the beach.. :(

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I'm just weird like that..

Need to start writing again.. Its been soo long..

So long has time passed, and so many things to be told.. Or kept secret.. Well, one of those things.. You know.. Private stuff..

And look where we are right now? Hahaha.. What a long journey.. Full of ups and downs.. It's almost the end of the road for some of us, getting ready to spread their wings.. Envious? No I don't..

For I am.. Well, stays the same.. =]

In some weird ways, I don't know.. I refused to move on.. When everybody is rushing t get on with life, I lay dormant.. And watch as people pass me by..

Weird.. I am so fcukin weird.. T_T"

Saturday, February 26, 2011

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
You could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you


Monday, February 21, 2011

Pochi's Diary

A Fun Day at the Beach! WOOFF!!

Hi, before I start of my journal, let me introduce myself.. Isn't that what people would usually do..? Introduce themselves..?

I wanna be known too you know.. I might just be Pochi to you, but theres a lot more to that than what you just have in mind!! I am more bigger and fluffier and woofier and definitely, more hairier than you!! ( note the sarcasm..? Hhaahha I am known to do that most of the time.. Love me.. )

I love to run, and eat treats because they're so yummy and tasty and sweet.. I don't know why my owner doesn't like it.. He bite into one of my treats bar last time, and he made this very ugly face after that.. I just can't get it??? They're so delicious! Why do you do the ugly face?? I hate you! You don't know how to appreciate good stuff!! Grrr!! WOOFF!!

Okay before I got tooo carried away.. Here goes..

-------- Fun day at the Beach ----------

I woke up this morning with a trace of saliva on my beautiful golden fur.. grrr... one of those days, I guess.. I've been having these nightmares these few weeks about me getting fat.. Oh god!! I was sooo freaked out!! Like you know, getting fat?? Me..?? A GOLDEN RETRIEVER?? A FAT GOLDEN RETRIEVER??? FAT AND LAZY???


So like, at around 10 in the morning, i saw my owner came with his sister using their mums' car, the Awesome White Naza Sorento.. I like that car.. I wish I can drive that car one day, you know, like that film, Marmaduke? Oh I hate the actor.. His acting so bad.. I can do better.. Humph!!

So like, they were moving so fast.. Zooming in and out of the house, loading stuffs I don't really now..

Hey, I'm a dog okay??? I don't speak human..? I would have asked if I could, but they would just think I'm making noise and smack me.. Do you want to see me get smacked by Rozan???? DO YOU??? COULD YOU???

After somewhat 10minutes or more of packing and loading, Rozan finally turn to me and said, Come here Boy.. Sweetly enough that I fell for the charm..

He carried me gently, and put me into the back of the car..

And here, I felt scared..

( to be continued.. I need to go poo.. )


Saturday, February 19, 2011


Nothing beats the power of Love. ( Full Stop )

Friday, February 11, 2011

Roz has got a very big mouth...


Nice eh???


As always, I am always in front of the laptop, looking and skimming through my Facebooks' data feeds and looking for something worth looking at..

Such as friends' status update.. Friends adding some friends.. And if they're worth looking at, I find myself hauled by a sudden urge of adding them as well.. ( weird stalker kind of urges.. aiyerr.. )

( till I just found out I accidentally called my COUSIN auntie.. and she replied with this chilli-padi sarcastic answer.. oh god.. sorry.. hehe.. )

Oh okay but thats not the point here..

I was skimming through till I saw this post from a person worth stalking at.. haha..

He posted something about an ANTI-VALENTINES DAY.. IN PUTRAJAYA!!



Here I'll post the link here so you can click on it and read it on your own.. ^^

Urm you did clicked on it right..?

Well so to say, why oh why..?

Why waste time fighting against something that has been going on for ages and ages..???

If this thing is illegal, shouldn't you been banning it since like, 1Centuries ago..?

You might as well say that we ( Muslims ) cannot celebrate Christmas and Deepavali or Chinese New Year because it is not our culture..

Then what happens to those with mixed blood, like me???


The thing is, we have been doing this Valentines Day tradition since like, ever... And its not because we were celebrating the fact that the Priest Valentines was killed for various reasons, but all the reasons was for love.. Surely we can accept that right..?

Some articles I found in the Net.

" One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured.

According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first "valentine" greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl — who may have been his jailor's daughter — who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed "From your Valentine," an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France. "

I seriously see no reason why this is such a bad day, right???

For some of us, Valentines Day is a day where we can show our loved ones just how much we care for them and just how much we appreciate their company..

And is it our fault that some people treat that day as a sex day..?? As a day where they can have fun and forget all about their responsibilities..??

NOO!! It is not fair.. It is not our fault.. You have to know yourself and judge yourself before pointing fingers..

And is it only on this particular day that people would be having sex and having fun!?!?!

Again, the answer is a big NO NO!!!

They do it all year round, regardless of what day.. Don't you go blaming Valentines Day just for these reason.. Please don't tarnish the good name of St. Valentine just because of this..

He has nothing to do with it.. The real problem is the society nowadays..

Theres nothing we can do, unless we change ourselves..

And as always, the vicious cycle will always continue to turn, ever so slowly..

The past will become the future, the future will become the past.

Sadly as it may, but.. What can we do..?

I might have spoke out of lines here, but can't I voice out my opinion..?

Surely I have the right to speak out, right.?

If ever there are people who are offended by my thoughts and voices, I am deeply sorry..

But as the lines goes on and on, You Fight For What You Believe, and that is exactly what I'll keep on doing..

No Matter what..



I Love You.

Just because I do..

So here goes,


Thursday, February 10, 2011

Something shocking about the already known.

Oh God..

I knew it I just knew it!!

Something that is already known to me, but I kept it inside me...

For fear that it might "just" not be right...

This morning woke up with a tinge of irritation.. ( I hated waking up in the morning.. )

And when I checked my usual sites, Oh GOD!

So it is true..

But I guess I'll just keep it inside me, again...

It makes no great feats to spread it around..


Aaarrgghhh but it irritates me so.. T_T"

I feel like pulling all my hair out when I found out about "that".. XD
( but I'll do it in a "sexy seductive way" so it'll leave a good impression )

You know, like one of those bitches having a super fit??
Or whip my hair around like that girl, whats her name? some Smith something..

I tried..

And I puked..

I can't even remember where I am after that.. >_<"



Tuesday, February 8, 2011


Wanted :

- Male / Female to be my gym partner early in the morning and in the noon
( prolly around 6-9pm )

Looking like this will score you "extra" rewards.

- Must be able to survive long hours of mouth training - chatting

- Open-minded and funny

- Loves shopping as much as I do...

For details and inquiries please contact :




But in the end, WHO AM I KIDDING!?!?!?



Thursday, February 3, 2011

Stupid Irritating PMS Ridden Bus Driver!!!

I was on my way back home from Alamanda just now, using the bus, after a long long day of work when "it" happened..

Lemme fill in all the loopholes before that..

I'm working part-time in Quiksilver Alamanda.. ( teehee.. no discounts okay..? i can only give you the member discounts, 10% so don't get your hopes up.. )

Okay enough about loopholes...

I was on my way up the bus..

To be polite, I asked if the bus would be heading to Putrajaya Central, because I once board a bus and it doesn't head to Putrajaya Central.. It ended up with huge mess..

I suffered the worse.. (- 3 - )/'

So lets back to the main story..

So I asked him.. And he answered me in this super bitchy tones.. "Yeaaaaaaaaaaa.."

Naturally I would feel humiliated.. There was a long queue and I am, always will be a vain conceited super-self conscious person I will always be; felt very very utterly disgustingly humiliated!! BY A BUS DRIVER!! EEEWWW!!!

So I just chuck in the 50cents money into the thingy ( the place where you put in the bus fare.. )
and just strode off to my seat..

Daym bus driver.. Ruining my Chinese New Year mood.. :(


I got a lot of comments today.. Some I quite like.. :p

I got a lot of "You tak dapat cuti ke boy..? " and a few "You bukan Cina ke..?"

Hahahah.. I guess lots of people thought I'm a Chinese boy and are surprised that I was still working and didn't get any holidays..

Sweet.. :p

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Foods in Cyberia = Sucks!

Okay I am not playing here but the foods in Cyberia, or in a larger content, CYBERJAYA SUCKS BIG TIME!!

They seriously don't look one bit like this.. :(

- Okay, I know they're not food, but I wouldn't say No to THAT! Hehehe.. -

But instead, foods in Cyberia looks like this!!

So daym oily and not varied.. :(

Even ordering soup also got many oil.. Euughh.. I hate it..

Normally people wouldn't make a huge fuss about foods here, but I do.. I guess its just the way I am.. I hate unhealthy food ( yeah, we all do.. but I don't think we have the willpower to avoid em'.. )

Cause they look so soooo good.. Mmmm~~

But I don't want these kind of foods anymore, I want DIM SUM, BAO, Mee soup.. You know..???

All those foods where you use as minimal of oil as possible..???

Can or not..?

So lazy eating oily food le.. It fills my eyes with anger at the sight of oil in my food.. :(

Please la someone, open some genuine Chinese restaur
ant in Cyberjaya.. I want those dim sum shop, the Chinese Mix Rice, the everything Chinese food.. or sushi.. or anything that is cooked without oil.. or less oil ( acceptable also.. )

Normally I would have to go to Puchong or Sri Kembangan to enjoy these kind of foods.. but at the mean time, I just have to brace myself and eat me some oily foods.. :(



Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Roz's Personality..?

Thought I take up on a random personality test before I start writing my post about... FOOD!!! :P

I htink they're quite true though, especially about the flirting and seducing part.. hehe..

Source : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.


- thnks for reading -

Friday, January 14, 2011

Super Bang-Cock Trip... =]

Before anything, I'll do some dusting in here.. * dust dust dust *

Pheeewww.. Haven't blog for quite some time now..

( Please do not remind me just how often I start all my blog post with that same phrase.. )

p/s : its embarrassing..


So like, me being one spontaneous git.. well, it wasn't really spontaneous actually, me and my pals have been talking about this for months.. ( its just we take no action about it till the very last minute.. clever eh..? )

The trip started with me rushing back from work on one cold night to pick Jon at the airport ( i missed him; his sister Bridget got to him first.. Oh drat!! ) And the night ended with nothing much except for supper at some Arab Restaurant and gushes of sisha..

The next day is a brand new day.. Waking up late is such a happy feeling.. Don't you think so? Hahaha!

Me and Jon spent the day shopping and pampering our hair in Bukit Bintang before heading to LCCT around 8pm to pick Denni up.. ( who's arriving from Jakarta.. )

The night ended swiftly after that, with me running around in circles, packing all my stuff for the REAL trip the next day... =]

( which will be continued on the next post.. cheerss!!! )

Hahhah! Lame right?

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