Monday, August 18, 2008

Selfishness leads to..

"It leads to destruction... "

Well, dhur.. I mean, i've been super selfish nowadays.. Been working my ass out, just so i have "something" to do during my long looong holiday.. As i preeeeettty much get too well absorbed in my work as the cashier in Sushi King, i tend to forget all things around me.. Everything seems to be whirling around me into nothingness, just because i din take much attention to em', nor did i plan to give any of my unnerving attention..

Yes, i know im selfish, but.. Hey wait.. Scratch dat!!! Does this eve relate to selfishness????? Rooaaarrr!! Everythngs been sooo fcuked up.. and it hurts sooo much i just feel like ending it all.. Sigh... I dun even know wat i want now.. Everythng is soooo messed up and twirled into one single ray of problem tat threats to destroy me, inside out.. T.T Somebody please help me sort this out.. Wuuuuu~~

I'm sure everybody faced this kind of thing; at least once in their life.. where all ur mind are shrouded with petty problems and dilemmas, commitments, responsibilty, needs, etc etc and theres nothing in ur strongest self u can do about it.. Dats just sooo majorly fcuking bad... I need to speak myself out, without tiring myself out, of dat im sure, but to who?? And who wants a fcuking retard to go around and tell people about their problem, expecting sympathy??? FUCK NO!! Not me, nuh uh~~ U can leave my fcuking ass out of ur problems..! I have enough problems to cope on my own.. T.T

i chat wif two old frens tonight, and.. it made me feeling gloomy than ever.. Reminiscing about the old school days made me realised just how precious dat moments was, and how i wish to relive it back in any way or another.. About all the classes, all the mischivious acts.. wow.. dats sooo drama.. =) And chat wif Hilary.. haha~ he reminded me of soo many things why i din like goin back to KK.. Haiz.. sad..

Oh yea, Sorry Hilary.. Hehehe~ I mean, u did reminded me of all those thngs.. No hard feelings anyway.. Luv ya... =)

Right now, im sitting in my room, and trying to think.. think about all the chaotic problems and dilemmas dat im facing.. but i really cant make head or tail of anythng.. its sooo hard to just get a grasp on em'.. Is this similar to mental breakdown?? Is it?? Am i facing meltdown??? Breakdown??? Please.... NOOOO... Wuuuu....

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