Sore Day.

Sunday marks the day.

Sunday really marks the day.

Such a tiring day.

Such a happy day.

So much fun.

So much bonding.

Why???

ITS THE SKY ADVENTURE CLUB - ROCK CLIMBING DAY!

Today, Monday..

Muscles are sore..

Bruises everywhere..

But with a great memory and experience in my heart..

Love.

Care.

Friendship.

Brotherhood.





Love,
Roz. 

What is YOUR PROBLEM?

Eish dad called me in the midst of the night.

Around 12am. Scared me to death. I thought its Satan calling.

Turns out its only Satan's helper... My dad...

 ( I wanted to put his picture, but I jst realized I have none. )

Hehe.

Oh yeah. No time to "hehe".. Angry mode now..

Dad scold me. Yes. HE SCOLD ME. AGAIN!

And this time, its because my bitch of a sister spent around RM400++ on her phone bills..

Like WHOOOAAA BITCH! Yu spent that much??? I don't even reach RM100! And I called a lot!

What did you do? Damn bitch..

Because of you, I got scolded..

* Slaps sister *

Baru puas hati aku! Hahaha..

Now I can't even sleep.. Ugh.. Pathetic..

Somebody save me la from this misery..

I want to go for a holiday.. Ahhh so sad..

so bored..

I'm dying..

Melting..

Like butter...

...


...





.....





Love,
Roz. 

Drained..

Life has been pretty much hectic nowadays..

Hardly get enough sleep..

Maybe its my fault too..

Procrastinate too much..

But eh, I didn't procrastinate lah!

I guess I just took too much time to finish my works..

Hahahah.. It's pathetic..

If I should say so myself..

Humm..

God I miss that moment..

Wish I can live it up again..

I miss you..

I really miss you.. :(

Alamak boring nya...

Okay okay okay so I don't blog that much.. Only once a blue moon.. But hey, can't expect that much from me.. I'm a very busy man, Okay okay???

Hey, but here is an interesting thought.. Daddy is in town ( KL ) for a few days.. I wonder what I should ask him to get me?

Maybe its time to ask him to get me that Louis bag that I love so much? Hold on, I'll post up a picture..

Should I get the damier graphite or the Geant Canvas Associe GM N58035?? 


Oh wow I love them both! 

But Daddy is figgin' stingy.. God I hate him.. T_T"

Going to meet him up tomorrow night after my treasure hunt in campus.. Weeww.. Such a busy busy man..

I hate it..

Oh somebody ( i think got a lot.. ) mentioned/thinks/thought/guessed/etc that I am a loner.. Oh man!! How could them? Just because I don't speak so much doesn't mean I am a loner.. So sad.. :(

Guess I have to talk more then..?

So lazy.. haih..

NIghts.. :(


- gotta clean up my blog.. got some stuff that is NSFW -

So lazy.. :(

Love,
Roz.

Oh My.. Money!!

Oh God.. I just had an epiphany of what my life lacks.. or actually is more to what I WANT!!

As sadly as it may seem, I am the type that thinks.. "and wishes".. the world resolves around my not-so-special self.. I mean, who wouldn't, eh?

Other people seem to think that they need Love, Care, Money, Sex... Security, Comfort, Popularity.. etc etc.. Whatever it is lah, so many things.. I am lazy to list everything out cause I am having major stomach-ache right now and I am wiggling my legs as I type this blog down! Ahhhh sweet balls!! It hurts!!

p/s : the fucking problem is, I don't even know if I need to go take a crap or my stomach hurts just because I have been eating so many spicy food.. Owww.. Damn it!

Okay!! On to what is important.. My life lacks..

- warmth

I mean, I am a lovable person, once you get to know me.. Ask all my friends, they will all say I look like a stuck-up retard bastard, but I am sweet in the inside.. So sweet, even my best friend Daniel calls me a man-whore.. Literally, a MAN-WHORE! ( I wonder if this will make me sound bad.. cause I don't really want people to talk about me that much.. hmm.. figures.. )

- Money

basically sums it all up.. yeah.. i know I will talk so much in this part.. I mean, come on.. Be realistic.. Money plays a very very major role in life today.. Ever heard of the saying, No Money No Talk? Yeah sure you do.. Its so famous now.. People use it everyday.. And me, I am different.. No money, no life.. Can't do anything without money, people..

Even to love, you would need money.. Okay okay.. Love generates to many many little path.. Got pure love, got sex, got dating, got many lah.. Thing is, every love need money.. For example, to get a girlfriend or boyfriend, also need spend money le! If not, its no money no talk! Lu boh lui u jiak sai lah! 

I am scared of that.. If my beau' was screaming at me those very words in public, I think I can cry.. :(

Imagine the embarrassment lah..You dress so smartly and parade around with a girl/boy; chest tucked out feeling like you are the luckiest person in the world and this happened! Fcuk off! Just the thought of it makes me cringes.. Eww.. So like, in a nut shell, as you all know it, no need to deny anymore, the truth is that NO MONEY NO LIFE!!

And the thing with money is, you can buy anything.. Everything is money now, can buy anything with money lah, sex also can buy with money.. Money money money!! Its a rich man world!! Wow I just wish ( everytime everyday actually ) that I am a rich guy!! Weewww what wouldn't I buy???? Hahahaha!! ( and yes, I am laughing now.. and I know I am such a messed up kid.. ) 

Aiyaaahhhhh just basically what I need most in my life is money lah.. Easier said right? Money money money.. I have money then I am happy already.. So easy to satisfy.. Hahaha.. 

I am in the airport now, magically so.. why? Because I started writing this blog last night, but stopped halfway to watch Glee instead.. Don't get too excited yet, I am only watching the re-run of Season 1.. Somehow in the midst of my hectic life, I have never been able to find time to watch Glee.. Which is pathetic I might say, considering I liked the episode, just lack the time and maybe, motivation to watch it? 

I don't know.. You try and guess it for me.. :) ( fun right? weeeee.... ) 

Okay airport.. Airport.. It is a very very good place for "people watching", if you know what I eman lah.. So many people here to watch and to decipher.. Hehehe.. I just wish I am not alone at this moment so I can at least share my thoughts and ratty itty bitty.. It's no fun bitching alone.. 

So many people to look at and to bitch at; I wish I can take pictures!! Hahaha!! Once a while, or maybe more than once a while, you get to see some pretty beautiful, hot, handsome, cute, gorgeous, sexylious, sex-able, kiss-able, hug-able people that you just can't help but ogle at that person.. Only at that moment when you suddenly realized your face is filled with testosterone while looking staring at a person then you be able to look away.. 

Like right now I am watching this bunch of steward and stewardess 

I have no idea where from but oh man.. They were beautiful.. Or at least some of them lah.. And then there is this gay looking guy 

 walked past by me.. Bitch!! Can't fool nobody with that outfit of 

 yours! Grr.. But seriously who cares? Told you, bitching alone is no fun.. I feel so lonely now.. Even that picture -------------------------------------------------------------------------------->

seems to be mocking me! Hate it.. Hate hate hate hate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get the fuck away from me!!! Roooaaaarrr!!! 

Seriously I have no idea what to do now.. I am waiting here in this airport ( KLIA ) without any sense of purpose.. Well my flight is at 3pm and its only 2.12pm now.. Hummm... Bored.. Oh wow that guy is hot!! Fcuk!! Y U WALK SO FAST?

I'm going to stop writing now and concentrate on watching people now.. Hahaha..

Bye.. 

Luv,

Roz.

Happy Chinese New Year people! Gong Xi Fa Chai!! 

p/s : don't eat too much orangess!! <3

- which reminds me abt vitamin C.. I guess I talk abt that next time.. :)

Big Meany...

My daddy is a big meany, heartless, soul-sucking monster who knows no compassion!! ( Roaarr!! )

This morning I woke up at 6 cause I needed to send my sister to school but the thing is, I can't even walk straight for 10 seconds because I was having this fricking headache on, and a seriously runny nose..

Seriously not a good sign..

Told my sister to ask our Mum to send her to school instead.. and I crawled back to my bed to continue my snoozing..

Till it was somewhat 1hour later that I heard somebody banged on my door and I knew instantly that it was my dreaded Dad..

Struggled to get up and told him that I am sick, and was not able to go to the office..


And guess what was his reaction???

He got real angry and began lecturing me about not doing my job, and the progress reports' dateline is closing in.. Saying all this even after knowing I was figgin sick!!!


Ohhhh that brute!! He even asked me to go work in KFC if I continue acting this pampered!! I was like, WTF??? I can't even get sick without getting a scolding from him!! Fcuk!!

( wish i was cute as this little boi.. :( made me so jealous. )

So, in a nut shell, it was a very very bad morning.. Was soo down with headache, and I kept on sneezing in the office.. Loud loud sneezes.. Def' made me awkward.. :(

Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow... :)

Down..

You made me feel so down...




I can't believe it, tell me i am dreaming that we are still we.
It was amazing said you were lucky that you found me.

It was on a rainy day that we met, you didn't have a place to go.
As we just met so lets go slow but no you just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry i can't take it, why you fake it, why did we kiss.

And i'm just down, you've left me with a note and without a sound.
I've figured i must stop being such a child. You'll never know how much i've been around.
How my heart just frowns on your down
I'll be your teddy bear, i'll be your cloud, i'll take round and round
And if you don't mind i could be your standing ground
Even if that means i'll drown.

As we just met so lets go slow but no you just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry i can't take it, why you fake it, why did we kiss.

And i'm just down, you've left me with a note and without a sound.
I've figured i must stop being such a child. You'll never know how much i've been around.
How my heart just frowns on your down
I'll be your teddy bear, i'll be your cloud, i'll take round and round
And if you don't mind i could be your standing ground
Even if that means i'll drown.

And baby that will be my one last vow

WTF??

Yeah! I would like to start my post with that!

WHAT THE FUCK???

Why do I have to be soo unlucky??? I mean, its like I have been cursed or something.. God!

Why me?? Why me Lord??

WHY ME??? ITS NOT FAIR!!!!

Just now while fetching my sister, I suddenly fell very very particularly sleepy.. And I have no idea what caused this.. Like, seriously.. I am usually attentive while driving but I have no idea what happened today..

I can't really remember though, but I know I was slowing down.. And maybe I closed my eyes for just 1 tiny mili-centi-metre-miniscule second.. and BUMP!!

FUCK YOU BITCH!!

I hit the bumper of somebodys car!! A soft bump lah, but its still a bump!!

I was like, OMG OMG OMG!! How the hell this happened to me???

I am soo soo dead!!

Stupid guy trying to ruin my already bad day.. Screw his white ass!! :(

Nooo!!!

Eugh shit..

Luckily the owner of the car that I hit, didn't press charges against me.. Well, her Proton Iswara survived without a scratch while mine got this huge ugly dent in the front!

So embarrassing.. She even asked me to be more careful next time.. Hahaha..

Even shook her hand in the end, I guess its her way of saying she is not angry and that she forgave me.. Hehehe good lady.. :)

But the thing is,

I have no idea how to tell this to Dad..

He would skin me alive!!

Aiyeeerrr~

Or I could just fix it with my salary, eh? :(

So stress!!!!

Long Long..

Today is gonna be a very very long day...

Full of hard long and thick.. mmm.. day.. of work and procrastination..

Though i wouldn't mind whats served on the other end too.. LOL!

I am soo sleepy and thirsty..

This torture.. Man.. I'd take whipping and smacking anytime anyday, but this torture..

The one I'm having now, is just way too much..

Its blowing my mind.. Aaaaaa BLOW ME!!! (no pun intended, this time. )

What are you guys doing out there?

Feeling the Monday Blues as well?


Love,

Roz.

Poker Face~

Hi, whats up everybody? Is everyone fine? Lol~ Don't mind me, I am just talking to anybody else.

Hahah.. So lame.. I know right?

Hrm.. It came to my attention today, that somebody said that I didn't care.. Or well, I showed no interest of the current biggest issue in my life.. Well not really mine alone, but involves 3 other people in my life..


It hurts.. And it stings..

Because I do care.. I just didn't showed my emotions and air my opinion about it..

Why? Why didn't I, you might ask?

Because that will be disastrous.. I am a walking time bomb full of emotions.. When I do show it, people might get swept away by it.. And everything goes boom.. Die..

Seriously I have my own thoughts and opinions, but in this matter, I really think its really up to the higher ups.. Its their choice.. Its their life.. Me? I will make the best out of it; I will find my own way.. Simple eh?

She asked me, who will I follow if the worse of the worse happens.. And I said, I will find my own way somewhere faraway.. I'll start my own life..

And I really think this is the best.. May be hard, and I know I will suffer.. No more shoppings.. Ahhh The horror!?!?!??!

But yeah, it'll do me good to stand on my own ground.. T_T"

Sucks!

A Letter to My Dog.

Dearest Pochi,

How are you? I hope you are doing fine there.. All happy and fed-well.. And I seriously hope you are free from fleas and ticks.. It is very unfortunate if you find a friend in them, being nasty things they are.. Pests.. Bad for your health.. I don't want you to get sick.. Never in a million years..

Have you been good friends to the dogs that my cousin Girly and Ngin Ngiang have there? Please don't treat other dogs as your toy okay.. I've seen the way you handled the Garfield Plush Toy I gave you.. You bite him like there's no tomorrow.. But the weird thing is, I know how deeply attached you are to the Garfield.. You got mad once when I tried to take it away from you back in
Cyberia, right? I'll get you another one soon, okay? Its a promise.. =]

You are such a silly dog.. But you know I love you very very much..

You know whats regrettable? The fact that I cannot hug and talk to you every night like I used too, and let me tell you, I missed those moments every single day.. I missed them soo soo much.. You were my friend, always listening to my problems and my rants and never get bored..

And all those private moments we shared together.. Haha.. And you were the only one who saw me naked the most!!

Damn you.. Never keep your eyes closed when I'm changing clothes or after I am done with my bath.. Pervert.. :(

Someday when I get my own house, I promise I will bring you and live with me okay? Then we can live under one roof together again, like last time..

It will be soo much fun, right?? I can hardly wait..

Make sure you take good care of your golden fur coat.. Grooming costs soo much, you know.. Not cheap at all.. hehe..





Till then, hang on tight okay?



Love,
Rozan...

Nothing But a Visitor.

I know I have always been a let down.. I admit it myself; I am... And sadly enough, it never occurred me to change into a better person, you know...

In my right mind, I am always Right.. I do whatever I want, practically because I know I could, and I would.. Nobody would object to what I want, and even if they did, I will always find a way to get what I want, no matter what the cost.. I know, I know.. I am living a completely ignorant life.. And took everything for granted..

I am currently back in my own home, in ol' Kota Kinabalu.. And yet, it is the strangest thing ever.. I just cannot get rid myself of this strange atmosphere.. Maybe this is just me, but I do feel unwanted here.. Like I do not belong here.. It is strange to be home, but not feel at home.. Guess this pretty much describe the title eh? I feel uneasy all the time, anxious beyond my wits; like something bad is going to happen any minute..

Plus the fact that there is no single speck of "proper" food in the house makes it any more worse.. By mean of proper food, I mean cereals, fruits, dairy stuff.. None of that!! How depressing.. All they seem to have are cupcakes, cakes, sugary biscuits.. Needless to say, they only contain sugar and carbs and I am having none of that..

But are they not food you serve to your guest?? You will not be serving your guests cereal and cheese and milk right?? What a weird choice of condiments right? Hahaha..

In the back of my mind, I wish I were back in KL.. Tucked safely in my room, alone.. I was secure, I was happy..

Too bad eh? :(

Anime frenzy!

AAAHHHH why oh why is that when I am busy with my ever-keep-piling assignments do I find more interesting thing to do?

Right now I am caught up in a super anime frenzy!

Just spend times between assignments watching anime.. And more anime..

And I keep downloading new anime everyday.. My laptop is working very hard everyday just to satiate my hunger for anime.. Heheh~

And thanks to torrent for providing me with anime.. Really grateful..

( And thanks for being free.. Seriously, you have my undying gratitude.. )

Now I am downloading Pokemon Season 1.. ohhhh can't wait for it to be done!!

Weee!! Now I am off to watch Lucky Star.. While snacking on fries I just ordered, and received..

What a life.. =]

Curiosity Kills the Cat...

But in MY case, it killed me!!

I tried smoking..

( I stole one from Shanna, I guess its hers? )

I smoked one.. Out of curiosity, you know..

And I swear to God, I am never gonna smoke again..

Why???

First, it made me cough.. Not just your normal run-of-the-mill cough, it was those awkward kind where you tried to act cool, but you ended up looking like an idiot..

Now picture me trying to hold my cough while holding a cig, blushing furiously..

Err, not a pretty sight.. :(

It hurt my ego, just a lil' bit..

Second, when I'm done with the cig, oh WOWW????

I got dizzy.. I was walking-swaying side to side..

Daym????

Luckily there wasn't anybody.. If not, I would have die of humiliation..

Third, the smell.. The cig smell kills.. I mean, I don't have any objection to people smoking near me, but when it radiates from me, from my mouth, from my body.. Oh boy.. Thats a no-go!!

That's all.. End of my rant..

Thanks for listening, or reading..

Cheers!!

Oh happy birthday Jenna!!! :D

Happy 30 years old!! Hahahahahahha!!!

( i'll tag you later in FB okay?? ^^ )

Cheers!!!!

Huh, what happened???

There is surely something very weird and terrible happened today..

Cause I was calling for taxi non-stop since 11am till now.. but I got na-da!

I even fell asleep in the process and still yet, no taxi!!

What the fcuk is wrong with today????

Please don't give me "its fridays" shit! I ain't buying it! There's so many taxi around here..

Don't tell me they're all occupied!!

Aaahhh such a bummer! :(

Empty Promises...

Like a routine, I would always promised myself to be more productive in the next semester, or current semester..

Sadly enough though, I guess the phrase "All talk and No action" suits me perfectly..

In fact, I managed to do all those things that I promised NOT TO DO.. Hahaha..

I slacked off..

I cut class..

I had fun..

I spent a lot.. ( Something that I never ever been able to get rid of, its a curse. )

and some other stuff, you know..

Yerr something needs to be done!

Brainwash me!! Torture me!! Anything!!

ANything so I can be a perfect student-ish type.. ^^

I wish things will be easier like that eh?

Oh I really miss the beach.. :(

I'm just weird like that..

Need to start writing again.. Its been soo long..

So long has time passed, and so many things to be told.. Or kept secret.. Well, one of those things.. You know.. Private stuff..

And look where we are right now? Hahaha.. What a long journey.. Full of ups and downs.. It's almost the end of the road for some of us, getting ready to spread their wings.. Envious? No I don't..

For I am.. Well, stays the same.. =]

In some weird ways, I don't know.. I refused to move on.. When everybody is rushing t get on with life, I lay dormant.. And watch as people pass me by..

Weird.. I am so fcukin weird.. T_T"

I never felt nothing in the world like this before

Now I'm missing you

& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door

Why did you have to go? You could have let me know

So now I'm all alone,

You could have stayed

but you wouldnt give me a chance

With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand

And all my tears they keep running down my face

Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what you keep inside

This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just aint true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me

(How could you forget about me)

You got me feeling crazy (crazy)

How can you walk away,

Everything stays the same

I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

I told you what it is & it just ain't like that

Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me

Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again

Get it back to the way it was

If you give me a chance I can love you right

But your telling me it wont be enough

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just aint true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

Love,

Roz.

Pochi's Diary

A Fun Day at the Beach! WOOFF!!

Hi, before I start of my journal, let me introduce myself.. Isn't that what people would usually do..? Introduce themselves..?

I wanna be known too you know.. I might just be Pochi to you, but theres a lot more to that than what you just have in mind!! I am more bigger and fluffier and woofier and definitely, more hairier than you!! ( note the sarcasm..? Hhaahha I am known to do that most of the time.. Love me.. )

I love to run, and eat treats because they're so yummy and tasty and sweet.. I don't know why my owner doesn't like it.. He bite into one of my treats bar last time, and he made this very ugly face after that.. I just can't get it??? They're so delicious! Why do you do the ugly face?? I hate you! You don't know how to appreciate good stuff!! Grrr!! WOOFF!!

Okay before I got tooo carried away.. Here goes..

-------- Fun day at the Beach ----------

I woke up this morning with a trace of saliva on my beautiful golden fur.. grrr... one of those days, I guess.. I've been having these nightmares these few weeks about me getting fat.. Oh god!! I was sooo freaked out!! Like you know, getting fat?? Me..?? A GOLDEN RETRIEVER?? A FAT GOLDEN RETRIEVER??? FAT AND LAZY???

NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! INTOLERABLE!!!

So like, at around 10 in the morning, i saw my owner came with his sister using their mums' car, the Awesome White Naza Sorento.. I like that car.. I wish I can drive that car one day, you know, like that film, Marmaduke? Oh I hate the actor.. His acting so bad.. I can do better.. Humph!!

So like, they were moving so fast.. Zooming in and out of the house, loading stuffs I don't really now..

Hey, I'm a dog okay??? I don't speak human..? I would have asked if I could, but they would just think I'm making noise and smack me.. Do you want to see me get smacked by Rozan???? DO YOU??? COULD YOU???

After somewhat 10minutes or more of packing and loading, Rozan finally turn to me and said, Come here Boy.. Sweetly enough that I fell for the charm..

He carried me gently, and put me into the back of the car..

And here, I felt scared..

( to be continued.. I need to go poo.. )

wooofff,

Pochi.

Love.

Nothing beats the power of Love. ( Full Stop )